Miriam used to say
that I was just like Basil from Dorian Gray
and how I am always willing to give and give and give
that because I love everyone, I am incapable of loving anyone

I was just telling Jorge
of how many of my friends I end up defending when they're hated
you don't really know them
not like I know them
you don't see what I see
and I give and give and give

I paint their picture beautifully
I use my prettiest colors and I take in all the details
I like them and I want them to be liked as I do them
because they're mine to love
despite them sometimes
making me feel like it's not that big deal
holding this love of mine
right inside their clenched fists.

 

I hate how much you turn me on

What is it about you, dirty fucker,

I hear your voice and it makes me wet

As if you could touch me with it

As if the rumbling of your vocal chords 

vibrated inside me

You play me like a violin

with the dexterity of someone

who's been around a while now

And I can't help but enjoy

the idea that I'm in perfect tune for this

that my moaning in your ear

is what inspires you to keep making music

I want to shut you up with my mouth

make you feel instead of talk

come here, see what you do to me.

 

Quiero ser.

Todo quiero ser, todo el tiempo quiero serlo, quiero sentirme, quiero vivirlo, quiero servir.
Mis propios padres, mi propia terapeuta, mi jefa, mi hija, mi amiga, mi enemiga, mi entrenadora, mi maestra, todo mío y también el de los demás.

Si soy todo nadie se equivoca. Y si alguien se equivoca soy yo. Yo soy responsable, yo me encargo, yo lo hago, no gracias, yo puedo sola. 

Yo soy sola. 

Sólo yo.

 

You hug me as we sing
hand in hand
you sip my drink
I tell you all about
my recent affairs and how 
I've been a wildflower
blooming when least expected
I feel gorgeous
wearing the reddest of dresses
that flows with the afternoon breeze
Sinatra songs and gin
and whiskey and beer
and laughter and pictures taken by my friend
who tells me about the girl he's dating
and describes her with such love
I feel like I love her too
what a wonderful day
at the end of a horrid month
I hope June is better
cheers to that.