don't depend on them 

to save you.

you've gone a long way from there.

there is no way in hell you're going back.

no way josé.

let them convince you that life 

is worth living

smell the coffee he makes for you

on sunday mornings

when you need something

to look forward to.

you've made it through worse.

taste his breath in your tonge

late at night

when all you can feel

is despair.

always.

remember all of them can leave.

remember that you can save 

yourself.

remember that you have to save

yourself.

no one can free you

from your own mind.

-L.

I study literature and often

they come looking for writers

for all sorts of things

-magazines and contests-

and there's always hands up

hands of all those kids who proudly write.

I never say I write

nor I ever will.

Because I don't.

I can't write.

I can only feel.

What I feel is usually shitty.

L.

Dear Loretta,

Blue is your best color.

When you wear it, it looks like 

the sky is pulling you back;

It looks like you're coming back home.

I love the way you sing in the shower.

You know so many songs by heart

you could sing the morning away,

and some days,

you do.

I love your love for animals, for babies,

for plants that are just beginning 

to stretch their arms around and look for light.

You look out for those who haven't got their own voice.

I know how heavy that soul of yours is,

but I'm willing to help you carry it.

Love, 

—Loretta R.

Here we lay in Eden

Hair down and no clothes

Your long hair warms my chest

Cold breeze and morning chores.

Let me cuddle with you more

Don't go yet, rough guy

You're paradise from hell.

I wake up in your arms

Twenty fifteen.

A world of possibilities

I'm excited already.

A brand new year.

A brand new page.

I no longer need a fresh new start

because in you I have

found something better.

—Loretta.

I know that you've been through sad times
 and I've been through bad times
I think we both deserve a lot of love
and way more happiness than what we've gotten.

This is why the team works:

because you can't keep still when I worry

because I can't keep quiet when you ache

and we both are so willing to fix fix fix.

She said we're on a long road here

and a while ago I started believing it badly

then you brought it up like it was nothing

and I'm looking forward to it.

All is good if we're good.

-LorettaRm.

but when you look at me

the cracks in the walls

of my tattered soul

begin to seal themselves

so hold me once more

if you can stomach it, dear.

-L.

Quieta.

Me quedé callada para poder escuchar la lluvia

golpeando mis cristales como deditos juguetones,

y cómo olía a preticor y al café que se estaba enfriando,

al incienso que ya se había quemado

y a ti.

-LorettaRm.